Statistician

I have a strange passion for statistics

I’m capable of reading for hours weather tables

soccer and formula one results

I find a strange excitement in those numbers

numbers are an approximation of reality

they will never summarize who we are

they cannot tell the story of what happened

it’s more an end result, or a punctual measure

I also have a passion for counting followers, fans, over various social media

and this is something preventing me from being happy

instead of focusing on what is truly important for me

I waste time and mind power on numbers that aren’t bringing me anything

Numbers allow me to dull my mind, to focus on something else than the internal pain and questioning

Numbers in their current form are a shadow as much as my fetish is

What to do then, should I retire myself quietly

to focus on myself and stop being tempted by numbers

when I expect people to like my posts, to buy my artwork

I’m asking people to give me love, but I’m not giving them love in return

well, I am, through what I create, but I’m not having the right mindset

I should focus on the love, delve entirely into it without waiting anything in return

and then life will start giving me back

 

About Erik Vincenti Zakhia

Dear all, I will share with you many of my poems, short stories, drawings and paintings telling of my journey of self-discovery and my reflections about life, love, art, spirituality, sexuality, kundalini rise, and twin flames. They all fall within the realm of Hazen. May you have an inspiring visit!

One comment

  1. Just share your heart and soul through your art, and let it go. God will do the rest. Just sit back and know you have shared.

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