Maelstrom of the Past

There are days when I can’t get started

I have too many contradictory ideas in me

like contrary winds clashing

and it leaves me frustrated and uncreative


It often happens after spending one night under the influence of the Maelstrom of the past

this wind that blows in your dream and brings back the memory, the anguishes

of who you were, and not who you are now

and when you wake up in the morning you realize you have drowned again in all the things you thought were over

and you’re confused about who you truly are, confused between the past and the present

and when you are not strong enough you relapse into the past even during the day


Today I want to avoid that, I want to keep the consciousness and the wisdom I’ve been accumulating

without drowning in old issues, old fears

it is hard, hard to change, to walk on the path toward yourself

the past is always looming close whispering to you it’s easier to remain who you are

to indulge in your cravings and your bad habits

and it takes a lot of wakefulness to fight it away


About Erik Vincenti Zakhia

Dear all, I will share with you many of my poems, short stories, drawings and paintings telling of my journey of self-discovery and my reflections about life, love, art, spirituality, sexuality, kundalini rise, and twin flames. You will also come across many paintings by Chantal Peguiron that are intimately related to my artwork. They all fall within the realm of Hazen. If you like it, don’t hesitate to subscribe and follow me on social media! May you have an inspiring visit!


  1. C’est très beau!!
    Et j’ai enfin réussi a avoir le premier like!! na na na!

    Liked by 1 person

  2. most of my days are like this haha
    Love the post, meaningful!!!


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