On the path to become myself

I found out discipline was important

not discipline as a rigid application of rules

for years I made a rule of not following rules and conventions blindly

to only do what felt right uncaring of what laws and society tried to impose on me

And sometimes I wrongly assumed that well, as an artist what mattered was creating

and things such as doing my dishes and my laundry and keeping my room ordered I saw as mere hindrance

It is true that it won’t kill you to postpone these chores, especially when you’re inspired to do something better

but on the long run, I understood these were not truly chores

manual work can be quite relaxing when you’re spending your days in the realm of ideas and imagination

sleeping early, waking up early, cooking healthy meals you love are all ways to find a balance with your body

they are ways to keep boredom and emptiness in check, to avoid falling into shadows

but of course to start viewing these chores as something meaningful and essential

I first needed to have a clear knowledge of myself, to be more aware of my dream, of the path I am following

that doesn’t happen overnight, and it’s not the first time I understand it feels good to have a tidy room, to be conscious of each of my gestures

except this time the understanding has sunk a bit lower in myself

each time, each cycle that repeats itself, brings me a little closer to full awareness

and from now on I believe discipline is essential to climb the last range of mountains before reaching the peaks I’ve been dreaming about, and having another world stretching under my feet

a new world to explore

discipline, determination in a creative way fit for myself

each person will discover a slightly different balance suiting his or her gifts

but all our journeys bear some parallels

we’re all crossing deserts and oceans and fields of stones and forests and reassuring villages and tilled fields and wild mountains

some people walk without knowing why they walk

others have this need to understand why they’re walking on this path to be able to go forward

and yet at the end, both will arrive where they were planning to go

what matters is becoming more conscious, more aware, step after step, valley after mountain

to appreciate more and more the landscape surrounding us, to sing with the birds and the winds and the rushing waters

to become one with ourselves and the nature surrounding us

to let the winds within us blow and cleanse us of all what is old and broken and impure

the state of our surrounding is but an image of who we are within

are we tightly controlling our emotions, our space

are we instead trying to forget, to fall into oblivion, accumulating things without knowing why

are we aware or unaware of why we’re walking in that particular direction

all questions that help us understand ourselves and grow in wisdom and in happiness

as both go hand in hand eventually


About Erik Vincenti Zakhia

Dear all, I will share with you many of my poems, short stories, drawings and paintings telling of my journey of self-discovery and my reflections about life, love, art, spirituality, sexuality, kundalini rise, and twin flames. You will also come across many paintings by Chantal Peguiron that are intimately related to my artwork. They all fall within the realm of Hazen. If you like it, don’t hesitate to subscribe and follow me on social media! May you have an inspiring visit!

One comment

  1. Je suis mitigée sur ces pensées qui ressemble aux règles que tu me disais pour m’aider à dessiner.
    Chaque jour à une certaines heures.
    Il y a des personnes pour qui se lever tard et se coucher tard et un mode de vie pour eux, ces des personnes plus de la nuit qui travailleront mieux en fin de journée.
    Il y a un spécialiste qui a classé les différent type d’heure selon la personnalité pour être actif selon leur fonctionnement.
    Pourquoi il n’aurait pas des travailleurs de nuit et des travailleurs de jour. Tu es encore un train peut être de faire des règles.
    Je pense que désencombré et bien mais est ce que tu l’as fait?
    Des chose qui te pèse et que tu gardes.
    On devrait garder seulement ce qui nous fait du bien dans notre maison ou essayer d’en enlever les mauvaise énergie, c’est un processus dur et long.
    Si ce sont de bon souvenir on culpabilise de vouloir se désencombré.
    Ou des cadeaux.
    Pourquoi, ayons la force de gardé nos souvenir intact sans ce poids dans notre esprit, de choses trainante.
    C’est un travail de chaque jour certaines choses, peut-être apporte à être gardée.

    L’énergies de chacun pour faire les choses est importante, certaines personnes ont très peu d’énergie et d’autres plus. Et en faisant les tâches on peut avoir plus d’énergie.
    Mais une personne qui ne cuisine pas forcement fera le ménage avec passion et les complément comme en Art entre deux personnes fonctionne, en connexion

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