I have an uncomfortable feeling

after writing you

as though I was bothering you

since you made it very clear that you did not want to correspond with me

and even more so when I write you on social media

than when I send you an email, which is more anonymous in a way


But that’s false

the truth is that the blocking is part of the dance

I need to write you and you need to block me

we’re helping one another to grow

by not writing you I’m doubting, I’m being afraid

I’m depriving you of something precious

my energy and my love

which are warming you even when you don’t read me