Pink Light

Pink Light

I see a pink light emerging from the haze

it’s still mild and frozen, but it is there, ever wrapping

I feel a swelling warmth in my heart, still contained

Is this the promise of a brighter day to come

Is this the sign that the loop where we are trapped will break

Will I finally feel you in my heart again

you who died and are now reborn

That is my dearest hope, my most fervent prayer

 

About Erik Vincenti Zakhia

Dear all, I will share with you many of my poems, short stories, drawings and paintings telling of my journey of self-discovery and my reflections about life, love, art, spirituality, sexuality, kundalini rise, and twin flames. They all fall within the realm of Hazen. May you have an inspiring visit!

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  1. Allez vous voir de temps en temps chez vos abonnés?

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  2. It’s a pink day today :))
    💓😎☕️

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  3. Erik il y a que chez toi ou tu tourne en rond et tu as l’espoir de sortir de la brume.
    Tu as la clef en toi!
    Un jour tu vas dire que tu explores les ombres un jour tu va dire que tu sens de la chaleur et que c’est fini!
    Puis le jour d’après à nouveau tu sens la brume!
    La prière pourrais être pour toi même
    C’est toi qui veut être la dedans
    Alors la tu vois je trouve que c’est trop d’attachement

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  4. Such great words to go with this painting. Hoping for a beautiful day.

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  5. I am in confusion right now and I was wondering if I could ask for your advice. Please let me know if that is okay.

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    • Yes of course! You can write me here, or over private message on facebook, or you can give me your email address, as you like best

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      • Wherever is fine for me.
        I’m really confused because my situation was very unique. My twin has come to me via online under different names but won’t admit it and it makes me feel like I’m cheating on him when I know I’m not. So I tell him that I’m faithful to him but then when I approached by a text or something from one of these men I’m confused as to how to respond. If they want to engage in sexting I’m afraid of letting him down if I don’t and I’m afraid of letting him down if I do because that would be like cheating on him with him? Does that make sense? I know it’s stupid. Because it sounds like I’m making it up but I’m not. I’m not crazy.

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  6. And I cannot believe I just published that private conversation here LOL

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    • Well don’t worry, why to hide, it makes us stronger to share our truths with others, even if we are uncomfortable with them. It’s important to accept who we are, with our defects and weaknesses, but you know that already. Concerning your twin: I don’t know your story, it takes time and dozens of page to explain such a story, and even afterward you will still be the one knowing best. From my experience, I never had any sexual innuendo with my twin flame. We told one another of all our past and present experiences, but we’ve never been together physically. For me, I won’t be physically with her until I will be prepared mentally and spiritually to be with her as well. For me, physical attraction is secondary for now, it’s still part of my shadows, something I need to heal. I can’t really explain it in a paragraph, but as I had suggested you, if you want to read my complete experience since when I met her, you can start with https://erikvincentizakhia.com/2017/12/19/meeting-my-twin-soul-part-one/
      If you still prompt me to give you an advice with regard to your situation. Even if the different profiles bearing fake names contacting you belong to your twin, you shouldn’t feel guilty to refuse the sex games. Until when you undertake this trip toward yourself, toward truth and love, you can’t be entirely with your twin. So it’s perhaps better to accept this distance for a few months and work on yourself. And when you are stronger, readier, you will retrieve a new version of him too.
      He too is working on himself like you’re doing. He too is thorn between his shadows and his true self. Take a moment to ponder who you are, each from your side. It hurts to be separated, but it’s a good occasion to grow.
      But at the end, just do what you feel, how your intuitions guide you, because you’re the one who knows best.

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      • I remember reading something where it says you’re not attracted to her? And you said something about a fetish involving a skinny woman and feeding her. I really hope that he is attracted to me because I would be devastated if I found he was not attracted to me. At the same time I need to know because I cannot be with somebody who is not. It should not matter Weight Wise as he has never been involved with me when I was skinny anyway. I don’t know what to do about this

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        • Well I’ve never been physically attracted, nor did she. But I found her face beautiful when she was true to herself.
          Physical attraction has little importance. Because it will come in due time. When we are ready to be with one another.
          For my best friend, it’s even more extreme, her twin is gay. But we both trust this will go away as they heal together.
          Physical attraction without healing is useless. Your twin is your mirror. If you have a wound, an insecurity, an anger, he too has one. You can’t be in harmony with him as long as you’re not in harmony with yourself
          Don’t worry about physical attraction. Have faith in life, in yourself, in your twin. That’s all I can say to you

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          • I never thought about physical attraction before and any other way but how he expressed his. He’s always focused on it and never had a problem telling me. If I found out that that was not true it would hurt terribly. So yes it does matter. I’m not sure what to do. All of this seems to be bothering me and upsetting me more than I already was. I’ve got too much steak and too much on my mind and so much to do just sit here wondering what the hell’s going on with him.

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            • There has to be physical attraction. It’s not going to happen if there’s not any. And I mean that from both sides. If I’m not physically attracted to somebody then it’s not going to happen. If I found out that he was not physically attracted to me hell no I don’t want any part of it.
              I’ve never heard of something like that falling into place in due time. Nobody should ever settle when it comes to something like that. Resentment would build up and that is no way to start out in a relationship. It’s one thing for somebody to say they find somebody beautiful according to their perspective. But to convince somebody that they are beautiful to everybody because they are beautiful in general is another story. I don’t need to be patronized.

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            • No. I think you are right. He is not physically attracted to me. When we met he barely touched me. I felt like I was all over him and I feel stupid. He must think I’m so ugly. There’s no way I can do this if that’s the case.

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            • Physical attraction goes and comes.
              It’s like Cupid deciding to fire an arrow in you and another person, making you attracted to one another. The effect of the arrow may last hours, days, months, years.
              Physical attraction is not Love.
              However once there is true Love. Once you love yourself entirely, once he loves himself entirely, you will be attracted to each other physically, mentally, spiritually, and accept each other entirely, no matter how you look like. But for now it won’t happen and you must put your heart at peace. It takes time. It’s a self-journey. You’re on the right path. It’s great you created your blog and started writing about your past.
              My twin once told me “be fearless and I will try to be so.” And I tell you the same words. Be fearless. Open all the drawers you are afraid to open. Accept yourself as you are without giving too much importance to the physical plane, physical looks, attractions. Develop your spiritual self. Accept to express your emotions despite the judgmental gaze of others. Follow your dreams. Try doing the things you love doing. Trust life and God
              And everything will fit into perfect place one day. One day you will both be heavenly and physically married. But you’re not ready yet, it’s a long and interesting way to walk to get to that place and rejoin him. For now each of you is walking his and her own path, two paths leading to the same place eventually.

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            • I don’t believe this is I never thought my ex-husband was ugly. I felt his insides are ugly but he is an attractive person. If I said I was never turned on by him means that I was not in love with him and was not attracted to him in that way apparently. That’s one of the reasons why I’m leaving him. So no I cannot be with somebody who feels that way about me now. That is not normal. I want to be with somebody who believes that I’m beautiful no matter what because that does exist. I know it does and I won’t settle for less

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            • And I’m developed more than you know. I never thought myself beautiful ever so I was already an awesome person inside. Right now I’m dealing with struggles that I had put aside due to circumstances I was put in, and focusing on being a mother instead of focusing on myself. Once I get rid of certain habits and ways of thinking of myself, I will still be the same awesome person I’ve always been. But better. What I want to be is beautiful to somebody inside and out. There should be no question. There should be no waiting. No conditions. and certainly nothing less than what I’ve already had.
              it seems like you have an idea of true love but I’m not sure that you understand what love in general is. Love is beautiful and love can make anything and anyone beautiful from the very first. If love is there then beauty is already there. if it is as you say then it’s conditional love and I will have no part of that. I’ve already had a just satisfying 17-year marriage. I deserve to be fucking worshipped at this point

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            • And I assume that since he isn’t any physically attracted to me, then fucking other people is okay at this point. Do you think that’s acceptable?

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            • If he is your twin, of course he finds you beautiful both from the inside and the outside. But he’s afraid. And he runs away.
              You can do all what’s acceptable toward yourself

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            • I’m scared too. I can run too. And I put up walls. But please I wish he didn’t shove me. If I’m rejected, how is that encouraging one’s journey?

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          • I’m curious about this gay twin of your friend’s…how does that work?

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