Mirrored Shadows

And so my shadows mirror yours

you wish me to disappear

when I wish you to be ever present

 

How do we balance that

each time I do a step forward in your direction

you do a step backward

 

And we’re helping each other

by pushing one another shadow to the extreme

if I retreat and huddle in an angle

you’re not going to come toward me all the same

 

We have accepted to dance together long ago

and now we can’t stop in the middle of this intricate choreography

we must go on, as much as it hurts, as much as it awakens in the pain and the lack of love in us

go on, go on, strike faster, move faster

by performing this dance we have tacitly agreed to growingly embrace our shadows, fearlessly

until when no fear will remain, and the shadow will be gone

so after all the fight is not against shadows, but against fears

a mad dance to defeat fear

a dance of truth and love and shadows to become free

 

About Erik Vincenti Zakhia

Dear all, I will share with you many of my poems, short stories, drawings and paintings telling of my journey of self-discovery and my reflections about life, love, art, spirituality, sexuality, kundalini rise, and twin flames. You will also come across many paintings by Chantal Peguiron that are intimately related to my artwork. They all fall within the realm of Hazen. If you like it, don’t hesitate to subscribe and follow me on social media! May you have an inspiring visit!

3 comments

  1. I tend to hold back because I’ve been accused of being overbearing. I used to shower all kinds of affection on loved ones even growing up I love hugging my mother and my father another family members but my mother couldn’t handle all the physical contact because she was sensitive to touch due to a childhood tragedy. My father was Macho and not in touch with his feelings. I remember when I was about 10 years old I tried to hug my father and he’s pushed me away saying I was too old for that kind of stuff. then in high school I had a best friend that I clung to. it was too much for her. She was very kind explaining it to me. But I was going through family crises and was very fearful and didn’t realize until later that that’s why I had a hard time loosening my Kung Fu Death Grip. On relationships, on situations, on my emotions on myself.

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  2. So I tend to back off and hide my emotions and feelings because I’m afraid of rejection and humiliation. When I cry I have been told “please don’t cry” with no reason given. When I’ve gotten too mushy in the past I was told not to be mushy. I’ve been told not to get attached and to go with the flow. When I questioned where I stood, I was accused of over thinking and questioning too much and not trusting. So I tend to leave it up to the other person to show emotion and feelings and words of love and I express mine as best I can without making myself vulnerable.

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  3. I feel like my twin is trying to tell me that he’s tired of making so much effort and me not giving any. That is not the case at all and in the past it’s never been the case. I’ve been told that I give more than is given to me. I don’t look at it like that. I give what I’m capable of giving which is usually everything I am, and he can give everything he’s capable of giving. What that looks like is up to him. I have the rest of my life to wait for the rest if he wants to give it, and if he doesn’t, that’s ok. Anything he shares of himself is so worth it to me

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