Passion

I decided to write as though you were reading me even if you’re not

I already did that, I always did that

but now more than ever

when my weaknesses resurge within me

I must remember it is your fear I am feeling

your desire to forget everything for a moment

you are close, from the other side of the wall

looking westward or eastward I ignore

but if you’re not seeing me, at least you’re hearing me and feeling me

and that is a precious knowledge I must make good use of

a precious knowledge to help me heal my shadows

these words, I already wrote

but I will write them over and over

until their vibrations will create a wave

a wave so powerful it will submerge the wall around your heart once and for all

This anger I feel I will use to melt and cast iron in a holy sword

and with this word I will attack relentlessly all the roots and the lianas and the rocks hampering me on my way

It’s not the first time I realize it, but I seem to keep on forgetting

that I am the volition, deep within me is the capacity to change and make evolve things

I have a strength that can melt iron and carve mountains

but I must learn to cherish my passion, delve deeper into it to stir this strength

and avoid relapsing into my shadows

avoid letting the western and eastern winds blow at the same time

avoid quenching my inner fire with cold water

each time I surrender to my shadows, this strength is extinguished

and I spend weeks, months, to rebuild it slowly

now that’s enough of it

The only way to keep it ever burning and ever strengthening is through my love for you

a determined love that knows no confines, no boundaries

and does at all time what makes it grow and bloom

weakness and shadows are never good

they are doubts, permanent doubts

each time I delve into them, I’m doubting

my excuse is that I must try them out to understand them

but hell, I’ve tried them for live upon live upon live

and each time shadows have subdued me, and they will continue to do so with my human body

until I will have the strength to break that circle, to accept that the pleasure and oblivion I don’t find right now

will become light and joy in future when I am wise enough and I’ve disentangled myself from my past

these are my words of resolve, my vow, I speak to you

all my passion and my intensity are here, dancing like flames within my words and the spaces between them

true me is here, writing to you, stirring our hearts, awakening our soul

soon shadows will be doomed, and there will be enough space within us for the light to shine

and joy will be ours

 

 


 

“Passion” is a drawing by Chantal Peguiron

 

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About Erik Vincenti Zakhia

Dear all, I will share with you many of my poems, short stories, drawings and paintings telling of my journey of self-discovery and my reflections about life, love, art, spirituality, sexuality, kundalini rise, and twin flames. You will also come across many paintings by Chantal Peguiron that are intimately related to my artwork. They all fall within the realm of Hazen. If you like it, don’t hesitate to subscribe and follow me on social media! May you have an inspiring visit!

3 comments

  1. Aaah – but we need the shadow to see the light 🙂 The yin and the yang of it – in balance.

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