Reciprocity

Reciprocity

I’ve had this word

on my tongue

in my mind

since yesterday night

 

Reciprocity

what is that?

one like for one like

one comment for one comment

one gift for one gift

one insult for one insult

Anguished reciprocity

that’s how I’d call it

 

When we receive

we feel complied to give

immediately and in the same nature

and it becomes an anguish

a matter of social conventions

a matter of righteousness

 

How much time and effort do we sometimes spend

to find someone’s a gift

without even being inspired

 

And now I tell to myself I tell to you

that this is not true reciprocity

true reciprocity is love

and when you love, you know how to receive and when to give

when you love, there are no mathematical calculations involving money and likes

love is infinite and can be present in the most modest of presents

a fluttering autumn leaf in the wind can make you dream and travel

dancing snowflakes in the winter cold can bring you back to happy moments by the chimney

blooming wildflowers in the spring fields can make you feel an unequalled elation

a dewy dawn in summer can fill your soul with hope and warmth

all these things are free, given for us by nature to enjoy and be inspired

but instead we’re here buying expensive clothes and shoes, cars and phones

we’re here offering each other shirts we’ll never wear, books we’ll never open, following blogs we’ll never read, just out of fearful reciprocity

nature is here to show us the way, it gives without asking anything in return but respect

and even when we keep on disrespecting it and cutting down forest and mountains alike and draining lakes and marshes, nature keeps on giving us more than we believe we deserve

that’s a metaphor of true love

when you give, don’t count, be happy of giving

more, give only from what is valuable for you, from what you love doing

and when you’ll give it’s as though you were offering yourself a present, because you’ll have immensely enjoyed the time you spent preparing your gift

when you receive, don’t count either, and instead rejoice

that someone else has shared a little piece of himself with you

and trust that this person’s gift has been in preparing your present

 

It doesn’t work like that in life you’ll say

but that’s how it should work

that’s how I want it to work for me

and when I want something with enough strength

I end up getting it